New Year, Same Me...

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 Or am I?

Each and every day I’m fighting battles. Putting pen to paper, fingers to home row is not always as productive or easy as possible. I try to read every day. I try to exercise my mind. Working beyond my fears isn’t always productive. So much self doubt has suffocated my mind and I’m tired of being its victim. So having said that, please consider new leaf turned over.

So long as there are E. L. Jameses in the world mass producing so-called American literature, I can coexist as well. At least the worst of my worst works aren’t that bad.

Happy New Year, everyone!

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